So just recently I have backed out of my current rooming situation for the fall. It was a very good choice for me, but in turn left me room-less, and roommate-less as well as leaving the girl I was going to room with without a roommate also.
This decision took a lot of tears, and a few panic attacks but I feel like through some words of others it is what God was telling me was best.
Cool, I'm doing what God wants me to, that's great right?
Yeah it is, but the main reason I though so was because for some reason I wasn't at all stressed about with whom or where I was going to be now living in the fall. I trusted that God had a plan, after all He was the one who told me I shouldn't room where I was rooming. That makes sense. But here is the wrong part. I felt that God, since I had followed his path was going to lead me to one that was exactly what I would want, I was going to room where I want with a roommate I would love. Thats what I deserved. Making that decision was hard and took a lot of pain, shouldn't I be rewarded. I felt that I was entitled to something that was pleasing to me for doing something that was pleasing to Him.
Let's get this straight. God, let me say that again, The God Of The Freaking UNIVERSE, does not owe me anything. I am not entitled to getting my way, I don't deserve a reward for following Him, which really is a reward in and of itself. How silly it is to think God owes us.
All of this is not to say that God doesn't reward those who follow Him, He does. It is promised in His word, but it is more to say that I have no right to expect God to deliver when and where I think He should. The room and roommate he delivers will be exactly what he wants them to be and exactly what he knows I need, even if that is maybe a tough freshman year switching around rooms. He will follow His perfect plan, not my short-sighted, faulty plan.
