happy thanksgiving.

enjoy turkey.
enjoy pumpkin pies.
enjoy the parade.
and finally,
enjoy Christmas music.
:)

soilder

we all have our battles. even that person you think is perfect is fighting something.

When we fight alone we grow tired, discouraged and we sometimes lose our footing.

To keep ourselves standing we mount ourselves down with ropes built of defensiveness, shame, and numbness and shield ourselves with masks and worldly things. These tethers grow stronger and stronger and our masks grow thicker the longer we fight alone. They become the only thing holding us down keeping us from being swept away by the enemy. They crazy part is that we don't even realize that its a trick. The tethers may be keeping us on the ground but they are also keeping us well within reach of the enemy army. They cheer as we place another rope around our waist to keep our feet under us.

They not only don't want you to run out of their grasping hands, they even more don't want you to run into the loving hands of Him. Because you see, in His hands there is no need for these chains.

The image I get is that while you sit in His right hand he shields you with His left. That is not to say that no bad comes to those who trust in God, it does, but you are held up by the one and only.

Have no fear when you are basking in the glow of the Savior. The army backing you is now infinitely stronger than the one that is attacking you've just got to call for that help and let Him scoop you up and protect you. He will not send anything you cannot handle. That's a promise.

foggy

My future is foggy.
its like looking though a dirty window. nope actually its like trying to see through a wall.
I have NO idea whats ahead. Who knows Jesus may come tomorrow.
but if he doesn't i will probably still be stressing about my roommate next semester. Looks like another run at potluck is going to be in order, and I'm a little less hopeful this time. i feel it is just plain unfair to get two awesome random roommates.
God has been urging me recently to quit stressing. He has it.
every situation in my head and on my heart is in his hands and as much as i feel like i can, i cannot change my path by worrying about it.
So why don't i just sit back and relax as a I hand these situations over to Jesus while he reminds me there is no where more perfect to place them.

My future is made foggy so that i will stop focusing on it and focus on God.

time

I think the devil loves the concept of time.
It seems like the number one reason that I don't stop and rest in my creators presence. I don't have time, I can't do that right now I need to get some work done. That is a daily excuse I use. Its the daily barrier I place between my friend and me. Its the thing that I allow to keep me separated from him.
It's kinda crazy though to think that I would allow time constraints to keep me from the one who created the concept of time. If he wants me to spend it with him he will make it not a problem. He won't make time a problem for me, he is the only one with the power to do that. So when I start to think about my time I need to again think about the one who created it.
and another thing, are we not supposed to give our first fruits to God. That isn't just money, that everything including time. Its supposed to be a sacrifice, and God promises that when you give he will multiply by tenfold. So give when i give my time I am promised that he will give me what I need. So relax and give to him. mind body and soul. and time.

half of my heart.
john mayer