one more.

Its the last week of lacrosse. It's been my life for the last few months and I know i have complained about it a lot, but its not hard to tell that i love it, and my team.
We wouldn't be friends with out it, we all kind of know that. But we are friends. I have made countless memories, pinky promises and have burned more calories laughing than running (okay so maybe that's an exaggeration, we run a lot). I love these girls. I'm going to miss our daily conversations while running laps, crowded bus rides, d-gate (our defense), and cheers. I'm their "crazy legs", they are my team.
But with the end of lacrosse i get my old life back. I get small groups. i get free time. I get leadership team. I get family dinners. I get a normal sleeping schedule. I no longer have scared and bruised legs (big plus.)
I'm really not sure how to feel. I'm going to miss it... a lot. but finally i get to return to my less-hectic life.

Celebrity Morph by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celeb

90 percent

I've been told i look like her since i was about 7. Sandra bullock has in many cases become a synonym for my name. I have even had a friend's family know me as nothing other than Sandra Bullock. They would be talking and someone would say Christin and no one else would understand who it was until someone said Sandra bullock.
Knowing this i could have guessed who my celebrity match was going to be, but i didn't realize that it was going to be a 90% percent match. That's crazy. 90%. Our eyes were the exact same. But I smiled she didn't. bummer. here's my morph.

lacrosse

its pretty much all i talk about from the beginning of February till the end of April. I apologize for this by the way especially to my best friends whom i know don't really care, i mean i don't blame them. I can't help it though, its like word vomit. I can't keep it in. I love it so much and not to mention it takes up my entire life during the season. I truly need to warn people not to bring it up because i know i will talk your ear off, i just cant help it.
Maybe it's because there is nothing else in my life during this time, i have nothing else to talk about . Or maybe i just get so excited about it that i want everyone else to be excited about it. i don't know but this is my written warning. Don't ask about unless you truly want to hear EVERYTHING about lacrosse. So i am sorry. ill try harder. i just want you to love it like i do.

the story to the title

If you have ever been horse back riding you know that the reins are essentially to controlling where you are going and help keep you on the horse.
But if you ride horses regularly you probably have tried at least once or twice to ride with out them to see if your horse was well behaved enough, to see if you were skilled enough or whatever. The truth is, is that it usually doesn't work. You end up going in a direction that you were not expecting to go in and have no way of gaining. This creates a huge feeling of vulnerability and complete dependence on the horse. In most situations this is not a favorable feeling but in a walk with Christ this is ideal. Completely out of control. Vulnerable and sometimes completely blindsided but knowing that the one leading you has only the best in store. so we sit most of the time trying hard to gain control, get rid of this vulnerability and fear of the unknown when really that's the beauty of the life as a christian. We have no control and that's how its supposed to be. All we have to do is sit back and enjoy the ride.