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his gift.

Sometimes I try to tell God that I know what He is doing. I tell Him that I've got it and not to worry because I too understand the events to come.
And yet again He proves me wrong.

I thought this summer was going to be filled with independence and letting go, when tonight the majority of my day was spent strengthening relationships.

My day seemed uncharacteristically devoted to realizing the blessing of the people God has placed in my life as well as realizing the strength and depth of their love for me. As I tell God that He will be stripping me of the relationships i deem too important He is telling me that their importance is His gift to me. That in many cases their importance is holy. He has surrounded me with those whom I love and love me back.

i want that.

i was reading this blog today. Its astoundingly encouraging. The woman is pregnant with a child who has fatal kidney and heart conditions, but no matter her daughters fate her eyes are wholeheartedly focused on Christ. When she found out the news of her baby's condition the only words she could mutter were "... my Jesus is the same as He was before I walked into this room." She continued to say its is okay He is the same. He is the same. Her heart is surrendered wholly. Her motives are His motives. Her love is His love. She is His even if that means sacrificing something she loves so much as her child. She knows God is still God, and He is still good. The things of this world even as traumatic as loss of a child are not shaking the platform she is standing on.
I want that.
Grant me faith like that.
My feeble inabilities cause me to shake and crumble under pressure. I am easily confused and distracted but He isn't.
He has my way planned step by step, a focus on Him is more important than anything of this world.
He is all.
thats it.
Why am I so easily seduced by the things of this world? why is my attention so quickly averted and why do my emotions feel so important? Emotions with fluctuate, but truth will not.

I hear You say,
"My love is over. It's underneath.
It's inside. It's in between.
The times you doubt Me, when you can't feel.
The times that you question, 'Is this for real? '
The times you're broken.
The times that you mend.
The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.
Well, My love is over, it's underneath.
It's inside, it's in between.
These times you're healing, and when your heart breaks.
The times that you feel like you're falling from grace.
The times you're hurting.
The times that you heal.
The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal.
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain.
I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame.
I'm there through your heartache.
I'm there in the storm.
My love I will keep you, by My pow'r alone.
I don't care where you fall, where you have been.
I'll never forsake you, My love never ends.
It never ends."

late.

new song

Ron Pope.
'fireflies' and 'a drop in the ocean'

One is silver

One of the most fun times in a friendship is the beginning. There are no problems, no weight, no baggage.
Its all fun. It is so new and exciting, with new things to learn every day. There is hope in the future and little at stake. It is carefree.

because Jesus first loved so too can I.