i want that.

i was reading this blog today. Its astoundingly encouraging. The woman is pregnant with a child who has fatal kidney and heart conditions, but no matter her daughters fate her eyes are wholeheartedly focused on Christ. When she found out the news of her baby's condition the only words she could mutter were "... my Jesus is the same as He was before I walked into this room." She continued to say its is okay He is the same. He is the same. Her heart is surrendered wholly. Her motives are His motives. Her love is His love. She is His even if that means sacrificing something she loves so much as her child. She knows God is still God, and He is still good. The things of this world even as traumatic as loss of a child are not shaking the platform she is standing on.
I want that.
Grant me faith like that.
My feeble inabilities cause me to shake and crumble under pressure. I am easily confused and distracted but He isn't.
He has my way planned step by step, a focus on Him is more important than anything of this world.
He is all.
thats it.
Why am I so easily seduced by the things of this world? why is my attention so quickly averted and why do my emotions feel so important? Emotions with fluctuate, but truth will not.