my baby

She's a 16 year old sorrel mare.
I remember the day I got her like it was yesterday, I was scared to death. She was about 12 times my weight and i don't think i was even tall enough to see over her back without standing on my tip toes. It was the beginning of the school year and I skipped the whole day. We went to get pizza to celebrate, but the whole time i remember wondering if she was okay. I wanted to know if she was freaking out. I gave her a bath on that first day and i remember her whinnying for me every time i left her sight and she would quiet down when i came back.
shes always been a sweet girl, she follows me everywhere i go, unless there is food insight, I do have to admit that food usually takes priority over me. shes my baby though. the only thing i have ever had full responsibility for.

but now school has gotten overwhelming, friends take up so much more time now that we have money and cars and to get that money i am working a lot.
i see less and less of her every year. I come occasionally and a cloud of guilt follows when i know i should be out there more. So my parents have come to the conclusion that its time to sell her. I have refused to help but it would be impossible for them to sell her alone, they know nothing about her or just horses in general. So i know its best for her but i don't know if i can do it. Sell my own horse, really? its been a life long dream of mine to own a horse and i feel like i had it in my hands and now I'm throwing it out. I'm losing my baby.