I don't like telling big news. This probably surprises many of you because you know that I love to tell anyone and everyone every little thing that happens in my life, but one wouldn't expect that the big things i just don't feel there is ever a right time to tell someone.
well, i guess now is a good time to tell cyber space. To many this won't matter, that's okay, its huge to me.
So at the end of the month I won't have a horse anymore. She's expensive, really expensive. I know that, I understand the reasoning. My parents are super stressed about money, the housing market sucks, meaning my dads company is sucking wind. We have no extra money, we all have to make sacrifices and I guess my horse is mine, but it really really sucks.
We are trying to sell her, but if we don't sell her, we're giving her away. So anyone looking for an exceptionally sweet quarter horse worth about one and a half grand please talk to me.
If you were to talk to me about this, I would be nonchalant as if i could care less about it, when really its really going to be hard.
Its not even that I'm losing my horse, where that is going to hurt its going to be nothing compared to the fear I have about losing a dream.
My life long plan has always involved horses, my college choice, my prospective career path, everything. What will I do with out it?
I feel like if I don't have a horse maybe I will see that I don't really need horses in my life, maybe I don't want to have horses all my life, maybe my college doesn't have to include horses.
Crap. My whole plan is shot. Where do I go now? What do I want to do with my life?
My life plan is centered around horses and if I lose that I don't know where to head. I feel like losing her is losing a dream.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
lost dream
Posted by christ*in at 6:30 PM
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2 comments:
im convinced that god has a purpose for this horse in your life. how many times has logan almost been sold? multiple times. and how many times has god allowed her to stay with you. everytime. there must be a reason.
You're sweet. And God is bigger than horses. And while I definitely agree with sweet J, I also encourage you to not throw out the baby with the bathwater. Don't assume that losing your horse is losing your dream. If you lose your horse, you might be even more convinced that you want horses in your life... and we know how much you like to be sure of things. :)
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